Seems there are only two ways to be- theist or atheist- and I think that’s bullshit. There is that mid path called agnosticism which some people claim is just escapism but I beg to differ.Right at this point, I am agnostic. I am questioning my lifelong belief in god and I am no longer sure whether he really exists or not.
On one hand, life’s fuckedupness would make so much sense if there were no god. On the other hand, I have learnt all my life to pray to a god and I prayed for things; some of which came to pass.
Am I theist or atheist? Am torn so I will say I am agnostic.
Maybe with time I will make up my mind about god’s existence, but god or no god, I realize now that it is of no consequence to me. If there is no god, that explains a lot about life. If there is a god however, I think he is pretty twisted and am not sure I like him much.
When it all boils down to it, I have a life to live- a life I chose to live (cuz there was a time I was ready to call it quits) and when I made a choice to live it, it was to be according to how I saw fit.
So god or no god, I have a life I need to live for myself and for the things I think count.
There is not just black and white- there is grey too – Theism, atheism and agnosticism. Then there is a grey spot between living for god or the devil and that mid path is called living for what you believe in with all your mind- supernatural forces aside.
I take that path and live for myself.