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  • Journal 26/2/2024

    i haven’t been writing much. I will blame it on the shooting for six days straight of a feature film called Gilgil. During shoots, I often find myself asking this question: “I really just chose this myself with no gun… Continue reading

  • Crying

    It’s been so longI’m almost afraidIf I started to cryI’ll cry a riverAnd drown from gasping for airLike a fish out of water Continue reading

    Crying

  • Suicide, But Make It Slow

    You have to understandFrom the moment you’re bornYou’re dyingBut slowIf you are lucky-Or unlucky as some of us feel When you growYou learn waysTo make it fasterBut not too fastOr they will shake their headsIn disapproval Some choose the bottleSip… Continue reading

    Suicide, But Make It Slow

  • Dust to Dust

    When I dieDo not cut a tree for meMake a tree of me Burn me to ashesTake pinches of meAs you wish Some of it spreadIn the Kilifi OceanSome of it buryUnder the fruit treeYou will water Help me become… Continue reading

    Dust to Dust

  • In Case The Doctor Asks

    Suicide?NoIt’s not ideation anymoreI know what options I haveIt’s not ideation anymore Like a sixth finger I grewIt sits on my right handThe one that would pull the triggerIf I did comeTo the end of my road I used to… Continue reading

    In Case The Doctor Asks

  • For Bobby

    I’m playing a songI used to playOn my morning playlistWhen we lived together I miss youI miss living with you I know I have to beOn my own from here onAnd I hope you visitAnd we can reminisceAbout the good… Continue reading

    For Bobby

  • Only Two

    I’m turning 33How is it supposed to feel likeDoes anyone know? I feel like I’m twoEver since the madnessI feel like it was literalBaptism by fire So I’m only twoA two year old adult I don’t know muchAnd that’s okeyI… Continue reading

    Only Two

  • For Ngartia

    Hey friendI saw a sunflower onlineAnd it hit meThey will always make meThink of you The smell of lemon balmYour gardenAnd the teas we have I love you Continue reading

    For Ngartia

  • Before I go mad again

    I worriedWhen I read thatThe episodes are in perpetuityIt felt like a death sentence But then the depressionCame again and againEven on medicationAnd it wasn’t so bad I remember thinkingIf this is depressionI can handle it Three timesI told myself… Continue reading

    Before I go mad again

  • Midnight Prayers

    The man of godWith a tent and a microphonePreached to us yesterdayWhen we were asleep I thought I hallucinated it all Woke up todayTo the neighbors talking about it I’m glad I’m not running madAgain Continue reading

    Midnight Prayers